2010 NOV 25 ~ THANKS GIVING~

Happy Thanks Giving.

I ran across this prayer by R. W. Emerson and I added just the top line.

God thank you,
For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends. ~Amen.

It is short, sweet, and touches all bases of what I am thankful for.
I also wanted to say a prayer for all that are not as fortunate as I am.
In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Lord please watch over your children, shelter them from harm, warm and sustain them through cold and hunger. Help them keep faith in these trying times, strengthen their spirits. May your love encompass them and your blessing be with them~Amen

2010 APR 03 ~ VACATION~

I finally took two days off so I would have a four day weekend. I'm ashamed to say that I didn't know what to do with myself. I finally have to admit it ~ tears, sob, tears ~ I am a workaholic. I finally had to admit it because while sitting on the dock looking at fish with nothing to do. Since for the past two days, the two days I took off, I had used that time to wash and detail my car, clean the house, run errands, etc. As I sat there I thought, why not get a part time job. This is the first vacation I have taken in three years, and it was only two days. I have over eighty hours (two weeks) paid vacation time available. It's probably more like a month most likely, and I actually thought it would be great to get a part time job. Shame, shame, shame. I really need to take time to relax. OK, I knew change would be slow. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, hell I sound like an AA meeting. So, here's my prayer. Lord Father, art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thank you for my life and the lives of my family, friends, and all your children that I do not know. Please strengthen my belief and faith, please keep me and my family healthy. May I learn through the experiences you have set before me, and my I learn to relax. In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit; Amen.

2010 MAR 20 ~ A long, long, way too long time. . .~

(japanese comic[manga]~panel read right to left)

Whoa, blogs are like serious commitments. To tell you the truth I totally forgot about this blog. Hopefully I'll remember it or a least post some stuff sometime. I have been praying everyday thanking God for my life and the lives of everyone around me, asking for strength of belief and faith in God, in myself, and in others. With that I have been trying to be less of an introvert, I tell you it is very hard (I really don't ever want to be a NEET). I mean I like people, I just can't understand them. I find a lot of people real shallow and many are just like fake fruit, a poor artificial substitute for the real thing (a friend or a somewhat normal individual). I wonder why people waste such effort and time with such fakery and lies. I wonder if the people I meet and know really think that what they present really hides everything underneath. Well enough of that.I am trying to live me life, do stuff, go places and just walk around and see and do new things. I want to be like Mr. Takahata's Lucky Charm in Angel Heart (without the heart transplant). Just live for the now, create no regrets. It would be great to have a program like that to wake you up in the moring or to look at to keep you focused.

Have to go eat diner now. Have a good day, and God bless.

2009 APR 26 ~ second prayer to God~

Dear Lord,

Please forgive me of my sins, in which I will so list. The sin of dishonoring my parents, the sin of lust and anger, the sin of pride and sloth, the sin of greed, and the sin of lying. I have not put my complete faith in you oh Lord my Father and have broken my covenant with you. Please forgive me. I see why I do what I do and how to change them so I will no longer do these bad actions. But my Lord Father a part of me does not wish to change. How am I to honor my parents when they do not honor each other. Why stay with someone that makes you unhappy 90% of the time, shouldn't it be stay with someone that makes you happy 90% and sad or angry 10%. I am tired of being unhappy and sad because of what I see, Lord my Father please wash away my pain and sadness strengthen my belief and faith, brush away my doubts and fears. Strengthen my faith in you Lord, faith in myself, and faith in others oh Lord. Clear my troubled thoughts and bring peace into my heart so I can stand firm and not be tempted to weakness. Dampen my lustful thoughts, please extinguish my anger, let not a lie past my lips or enter my thought and actions. Oh Lord my Father. Please let me be satisfied and content with what you have given me, let me not be greedy and prideful. Invigorate me so I will not be slothful and waste the time you have given to enjoy life and the world around me. My doubts, my fears, my certainties are overwhelming, thank you Lord my Father for always being there.

In name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost, Amen.

2009 JAN 17 ~ new car ~

Oh what a relief, I finally have a new car. It is a 2004 Mitsubishi Galant LS and I paid only six grand for it even though it is worth ten. I am truly blessed by God. I have not been zealous in my faith but looking now I see I have always been blessed. I have more than what many others do not, so I am very thankful that God has blessed me. I will strive now to live my life to the fullest, I do not think God would like for me to waste even a minute of my blessed life. I hope I can do just that, and have no more regrets over the things that I should, could have, or would have done. Right now I am really happy. I have to find a good name to call this car, Rio-Ohki was the name of my old car (1997 Nissan Altima SE - a black car with daytime running lights and cruise control modified to drift). Rio-Ohki was sweet on the turns. My Mother wants to name the new car Feather, because it is white. I can go for Megumi (jap - blessing) or Aysu (tur - moon water).

2009 JAN 17 ~first prayer to God~

Dear Lord,
Please strengthen my belief and faith, brush away my doubts and fears. Strengthen my faith in you Lord, faith in myself, and faith in others oh Lord. Clear my troubled thoughts and bring peace into my heart so I can stand firm and not be tempted to weakness. Oh Lord God, I have sinned many times, and I am ashamed for I had made promises to you Lord God to not commit thoses sins. Lord please forgive me for the sins that I have committed, I am trully sorry.

In name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost, Amen.

2009 JAN 16 ~hopeful start~

This year I had wanted to start differently, to try to live my day like it was the only day that mattered. Live it to the fullest. Well, like many times before, I stopped and thought and pondered about what I would like to do and have done nothing. So I sit here angry at myself for my laziness and ackwardness. I had wanted to break out of my shell, not be so anti-social or introvent. I like people, I just don't know how to act in front of friends. I wish I could be closer to people outside of work. There are many things in which I want to do, such as lose weight, take several classes to at least get my associates degree, save money, pay my bills, be kinder and nicer, show my love more, find someone to love, attend church and build up my faith in God. The many things I want to do, and the many things that I haven't done is making me depressed. I am stressed, so many things are now happening to my body that I do not understand. I hope nothing is wrong.